The Brimmer Family: "HIS Love Reaches Me Everywhere"

Saturday, December 4, 2010

"HIS Love Reaches Me Everywhere"

It was very difficult Tuesday morning getting ready and driving to Owen's grave. Just knowing that we were saying goodbye to our baby. Our hearts were broken, that we could not hold him or watch him grow, and how much we missed him already. When we got to the cemetery, we waited in the car for a while and had one of Lauren's Veggie Tales CDs on for her. Lauren crawled up in the front between Brad and I and started to sing the song that was playing. - Wide, wide as the ocean, high as the heaven above, Deep, deep as the deepest sea, it my Savior's love. I feel so unworthy, still I'm a child of His care. For His word teaches me that His Love reaches me everywhere.- How sweet and wonderful that God used Lauren to let us know that He loved us and His love could reach us right where we were that day, sitting in a cemetery, with broken hearts.

Our family was able to be at Owen's grave side service (minus one of Brad's sisters and her husband, but we know their hearts and prayers were with us), which gave us so much support and strength. And we are thankful that friends were able to come too. All the love from everyone there was overwhelming. The service was beautiful. And yes- it was cold and snowing, but we thought it was peaceful and just fit.

Lauren wrote a note to Owen so we tied it to some blue balloons and she let it off at the service. Unfortunatly it did get stuck in a tree, but I don't think it bothered her.

Lauren talks about him some. And she understands that he is not in my belly any more, that he is in Heaven with Jesus. She prayed the other night that Jesus would take care of Owen and help her not to miss him. I just keep praying that God would give her perfect "4 year old" understanding. I'm so glad that she had such an attachment to and love for Owen while I was pregnant with him. She is a wonderful big sister, the best.

I think Brad and I are doing OK. Still missing our Owen and wishing we could hold him again. We know and believe that Owen was a gift to us, and we wonder "why" a lot, but we trust in God's plan for us. Jer. 29:11

One more picture. I love this pic of Brad holding Owen. It just reminds me of what a loving and great man of God, he is.

1 comment:

AnonymousDecember 8, 2010 at 9:05 AM
Thank you so much for sharing this. When you pray for someone and can't be there it means so much that they share it. May the Lord Bless you and comfort you in your loss on earth and may He help us to celebrate heaven's gain. Love, Ken and Rhonda
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